Ever have that feeling where you really want something to happen, and it doesn't? Cause I don't have that feeling right now, nor the feeling of something I really want happening either. In fact, I feel rather emotionless right now. I'm pretty sure that work is dulling my senses down to a bland nothingness. Today was the first time in weeks that I wasn't working by myself out in the middle of a field of trees. But, the company I heald today was somewhat less than desireable. I was workin with a guy named Dick whos in his late 40s (?) and a rather odd character. Not much for socializing, and always yelling about something or another not being right or I need to do such and such. So I basically stopped listening to what he said and just tried to do my job. Which, of course, was even more depressing cause all I was doin was pounding steaks into the ground and stringing wire from them to trees to pull the trees straight, all in all very boring. I think the only things I'm holding onto at this point is a show Saturday night for the short term, and then end of the work season for long term. I think I can make it thru one more work day knowing that then I have two days off and the chance to play a show, which I think I need to relax and have some fun. Oh, and speaking of Saturday, anyone wanna go to SooFoo? I wanna go semi-early, as in I wanna be back at like 4 at the latest so I have time to get some stuff done before having to head to OC for the show. Lemme know if you wanna go, I don't wanna go by myself cause I don't think I'd find half the stuff I need to.
So, yes, bit of a tangent there, but long term I'm holding onto the fact that my job will be over in at most a few months. I think I would go insane if I knew that I would be doin the same thing for the long-term forseeable future. I really hope the Admin job comes thru, that would be so awesome. I can leave a job I dont like and actually do something that would be fun and enjoyable. If that doesn't happen, I think I'm just gonna apply to be on the overnight shift for one of the local houses and do that for a while. At least there I can watch a movie or read a book while doin nothing there.
I need something, I dunno what. I just feel like I'm coasting thru right now, with no real excitment or anything. My days are down to a fine formula of long boring work days and rather dull evenings that only may be highlighted by perhaps a good conversation in the Bean (hard tho, since I have to be back home for bed before anyone is even in the talking/done with homework mood). Maybe a gf? Meh, no, bad idea. Whats worse than wanting a gf for nothing else except to kill boredom. I mean, a gf would be nice, but not for that reason. But, thats a moot issue at this point anyway, so no point in debating it. Maybe I should take up knitting or plate-spinning.
Meh, I give up, I'm gonna go take a shower and figure out what kinda cerial I want for dinner.
______ of the day: "Woah, I'm waiting for the breakdown" -Breakdown, Mae
The Apathetic Ogukuo
28 September 2006
22 September 2006
I feel like an emo kid
Except without the black hair, tight pants, and wierd writting/musical talent thing. (btw, if you haven't seen Little Miss Sunshine, see it, good portrayal of a real Emo kid) But I do feel all down and that 'life hates me' blah blah blah. I think the reason may be because I'm not really doin anything useful right now. Right now, like right now in life, and right now, like 11 am Friday morning. I only worked 3 days this week, I couldn't really work yesterday cause it was raining all day, and I'm not working now cause everything is soaked, and it'll probably be raining off and on thru most of today as well. But, I guess I could go in? Maybe? I dunno, its not raining at this moment, but probably will be, and what would I be doin there, anyway? Tromping around in the mud feeling miserable and not really getting anything accomplished anyway. The whole 3 days I did work this week I spent out in the field "pruning" trees. Except these are trees that I've worked most of the summer on, pruning, shaping, steaking, etc etc etc. So, in otherwords, I'm really only doin stuff that I've done before. I go in to work in the morning, and if none of the crews need me, they just send me out to the field to 'work on the trees.' But that really means nothing, cause its all be done already, so I'm really just out there wasting time til 5 when I can go home. I mean, yeah, I'm doin some minor pruning, and straightening of trees, but nothing thats worthy of me being out there 9 hours a day. I'm pretty sure they don't mind too much when I take off the "maybe" days like today, cause it means they don't have to pay me for doin not much of anything anyway. I hate being the one who isn't really needed, and thats what I feel like at my current job.
So, on a day like today, I'm not working, and instead doin nothing at home. Everyone else is either at work or class, and I'm not sure what to do. I mean, I'll do the dishes and such, but that only takes so long. I wanna go to the dark room, but I'm runnin out of stuff to work on there, and its kinda hard to be motivated to do art when theres no venue to show it. I gotta talk to Van Geest and see when the Center Mall art sale is, and if I can get in on it. Not cause I'm lookin to sell dozens of pieces and become rich, but because it'll give me something to aim for and a way to get my stuff out there for people to see. I think I'm also cranky cause OJK hasn't played together in almost 2 weeks. Of course, those of you who don't know what I'm talkin about shrug and say 'who cares', but for me (and I assume the other guys) its a big release, and it really helps me feel better, just to know I'm part of something creative, fun, and that people enjoy. I also am trying to motivate myself to work on other musical stuff too. Like, playing more piano, expanding what I can do on piano (like learn chords, not just playing classical, I'd love to be able to play along with more modern music), and alot more acoustic guitar. The guitar thing is kinda depressing tho, cause I've been tryin, and for the life of me cannot play and sing at the same time. Which is really frustrating. So then I just wanna forget about it, put the guitar down and do something even less productive, such as blog. So, to combat that, I'm gonna be playin with Katie (who is awesome) and we are both gonna be frustrated together trying to play guitar. But, since we're both there, neither of us can just put down the guitar and sulk. Who knows, maybe we'll be the next Gilbert and Sullivan, or Paul and John. I'm conviced that certain very musically talented people (such as McCartney and Lennon, or Simon and Garfunkel) would have never had done anything if they hadn't have played together. In fact, the only reason Paul Simon was into music was because his childhood friend, Arthur Garfunkel won some singing contest in elementary school, and this motivated Simon. Even tho Simon is an awesome songwriter and singer, if it hadn't have been for Garfunkel (the second fiddle as most people consider him), he probably wouldn't have ever gotten anywhere. Although I consider myself to be nowheres near as talented as any of the aforementioned people, I feel that I'm simular to them in the sense that I don't think I could do the music thing on my own, I need to be playing with a band or another person to really feel musical. For me, I need to build off of someone, and have them build off of me.
And now I've gone from writting about being depressed about whatever it is I'm depressed about to stating a major thesis for musical talent, I dunno how that happened. But, anyway, I think I'm gonna head over to campus and peruse the darkroom for a while (hopefully find something to work on) and see if I can't find Van Geest and see about this art sale dealio. As much as I like days off and weekends, I'm hoping I can be more productive with them.
_____ of the day: Wednesday afternoon was one of the most beautiful days I've ever seen.
The I-wish-it-were-some-point-in-the-future Ogukuo
So, on a day like today, I'm not working, and instead doin nothing at home. Everyone else is either at work or class, and I'm not sure what to do. I mean, I'll do the dishes and such, but that only takes so long. I wanna go to the dark room, but I'm runnin out of stuff to work on there, and its kinda hard to be motivated to do art when theres no venue to show it. I gotta talk to Van Geest and see when the Center Mall art sale is, and if I can get in on it. Not cause I'm lookin to sell dozens of pieces and become rich, but because it'll give me something to aim for and a way to get my stuff out there for people to see. I think I'm also cranky cause OJK hasn't played together in almost 2 weeks. Of course, those of you who don't know what I'm talkin about shrug and say 'who cares', but for me (and I assume the other guys) its a big release, and it really helps me feel better, just to know I'm part of something creative, fun, and that people enjoy. I also am trying to motivate myself to work on other musical stuff too. Like, playing more piano, expanding what I can do on piano (like learn chords, not just playing classical, I'd love to be able to play along with more modern music), and alot more acoustic guitar. The guitar thing is kinda depressing tho, cause I've been tryin, and for the life of me cannot play and sing at the same time. Which is really frustrating. So then I just wanna forget about it, put the guitar down and do something even less productive, such as blog. So, to combat that, I'm gonna be playin with Katie (who is awesome) and we are both gonna be frustrated together trying to play guitar. But, since we're both there, neither of us can just put down the guitar and sulk. Who knows, maybe we'll be the next Gilbert and Sullivan, or Paul and John. I'm conviced that certain very musically talented people (such as McCartney and Lennon, or Simon and Garfunkel) would have never had done anything if they hadn't have played together. In fact, the only reason Paul Simon was into music was because his childhood friend, Arthur Garfunkel won some singing contest in elementary school, and this motivated Simon. Even tho Simon is an awesome songwriter and singer, if it hadn't have been for Garfunkel (the second fiddle as most people consider him), he probably wouldn't have ever gotten anywhere. Although I consider myself to be nowheres near as talented as any of the aforementioned people, I feel that I'm simular to them in the sense that I don't think I could do the music thing on my own, I need to be playing with a band or another person to really feel musical. For me, I need to build off of someone, and have them build off of me.
And now I've gone from writting about being depressed about whatever it is I'm depressed about to stating a major thesis for musical talent, I dunno how that happened. But, anyway, I think I'm gonna head over to campus and peruse the darkroom for a while (hopefully find something to work on) and see if I can't find Van Geest and see about this art sale dealio. As much as I like days off and weekends, I'm hoping I can be more productive with them.
_____ of the day: Wednesday afternoon was one of the most beautiful days I've ever seen.
The I-wish-it-were-some-point-in-the-future Ogukuo
18 September 2006
So much for Autumn!!
I have this odd feeling I'm falling off my blogging habit.
So, what a weekend. Friday night was planned to be comedy league and then a party at the farmhouse, and ended up being neither of those. Instead, the girls of WH108 came over here, we went shopping for Sunday dinner food, and then they made brownies and smoothies at my place. Twas a good time. A few of us watched Hero, myself not included. I was there in body, but fell unconscious at some point. Stupid lack of sleep the night before. And I'm bummed, cause it looked like a really good movie, so now I'm just gonna have to watch it again to actually see what happens.
Saturday saw some garage sailing in the morning, the picking up of a hymnal, horse shoe set and a new washer and dryer. We now have double laundry machines in our basement. Yippee. But, a functioning dryer again, so no more bringing loads of wet clothes over to Southview. The rest of the day was spend doing random household chores and general lounging. Then the funness started around 8 or so when a wave of people hit the house in celebration of Kara's 21st. A fun time was had by all, and somehow I ended up awake until 3:30 or so. Amazingly, I made it up at like 8:30 and to church Sunday morning. And, as one would expect, back in bed right after church for a nice 2 hour nap. And then a screening of Love Actually (that in itself will be a post sooner or later, cause I love that movie more and more each time I see it), and then the girls of WH108 came over again with a superb slow cooked roast for Sunday dinner/supper. And, some wonderful chips and dip. SOunds like thats gonna be a weekly event, which is very cool/awesome/spiffy/groovy/cats meow. Perhaps BBQ next week, yay! And then GIFT last night, which went well, the team is quite different now than last year, not sure yet what I think of it. But I liked the song selection, which is crucial, for me at least.
So, theres the review, and now a short preview: Winters here!!! Saturday was almost 90 degrees, and today we were stuck in the low 50s, it was horrid. I mean, I don't want 90s, but I could barely operate at work with the temps so low, the wind, and the mist. It was like a California winter (worse than you think, for you ignorant ones who have never experianced such a thing). And it'll be like that all week it looks like. Perhaps rain on Thursday and Friday, which means I'd be getting out of work either early, or all day both days. Good cause it gives me time to do other stuff (ie darkroom), but bad cause I ain't makin money. Next weekend will be pretty cool. No particular reason that I know of yet, cept for the fact that its gonna be a weekend.
ANd now its shower time.
_______ of the day: Why can't Iowa have all 4 seasons like everyone else??
The cold Ogukuo
So, what a weekend. Friday night was planned to be comedy league and then a party at the farmhouse, and ended up being neither of those. Instead, the girls of WH108 came over here, we went shopping for Sunday dinner food, and then they made brownies and smoothies at my place. Twas a good time. A few of us watched Hero, myself not included. I was there in body, but fell unconscious at some point. Stupid lack of sleep the night before. And I'm bummed, cause it looked like a really good movie, so now I'm just gonna have to watch it again to actually see what happens.
Saturday saw some garage sailing in the morning, the picking up of a hymnal, horse shoe set and a new washer and dryer. We now have double laundry machines in our basement. Yippee. But, a functioning dryer again, so no more bringing loads of wet clothes over to Southview. The rest of the day was spend doing random household chores and general lounging. Then the funness started around 8 or so when a wave of people hit the house in celebration of Kara's 21st. A fun time was had by all, and somehow I ended up awake until 3:30 or so. Amazingly, I made it up at like 8:30 and to church Sunday morning. And, as one would expect, back in bed right after church for a nice 2 hour nap. And then a screening of Love Actually (that in itself will be a post sooner or later, cause I love that movie more and more each time I see it), and then the girls of WH108 came over again with a superb slow cooked roast for Sunday dinner/supper. And, some wonderful chips and dip. SOunds like thats gonna be a weekly event, which is very cool/awesome/spiffy/groovy/cats meow. Perhaps BBQ next week, yay! And then GIFT last night, which went well, the team is quite different now than last year, not sure yet what I think of it. But I liked the song selection, which is crucial, for me at least.
So, theres the review, and now a short preview: Winters here!!! Saturday was almost 90 degrees, and today we were stuck in the low 50s, it was horrid. I mean, I don't want 90s, but I could barely operate at work with the temps so low, the wind, and the mist. It was like a California winter (worse than you think, for you ignorant ones who have never experianced such a thing). And it'll be like that all week it looks like. Perhaps rain on Thursday and Friday, which means I'd be getting out of work either early, or all day both days. Good cause it gives me time to do other stuff (ie darkroom), but bad cause I ain't makin money. Next weekend will be pretty cool. No particular reason that I know of yet, cept for the fact that its gonna be a weekend.
ANd now its shower time.
_______ of the day: Why can't Iowa have all 4 seasons like everyone else??
The cold Ogukuo
09 September 2006
The Saturday Morning Post
The sun came up with no conclusions
Flowers sleeping in their beds
The city's cemetery's humming
I'm wide awake, it's morning
Thank You to Bright Eyes for that little lyrical selection. And yes, it is true, I am wide awake, and it is morning. Although, I have no idea why I'm awake at 8 am, because I didn't go to bed until 3. I wanted to go to bed at like 1, but duty called, and I kinda had to make sure my house stayed standing thru the hurricane of alcahol that hit it. Last night was like a category 2. Not too bad, but bad enough to warrent a little worry. Plus, my new guitar was pulled out and played last night around 2:30 (quite well, I might add, by capable guitar players, but by ones I didn't really know). I was a bit worried about that, given the strength of the aforementioned hurricane, but went to bed anyway, cause 3 was late enough for me. Got up this morning, and couldn't find my guitar anywhere and started freaking out. Was rude enough to wake up Reid, and found out that he had hidden it behind the couch to protect it. Sorry Ross and Pasma, but Reid just shot up to number 1 roommate, way way up, like, no compitition, and one of you two is gonna have to save some old lady and all her cats from a burning building to pass him up.
Ok, enough on that, Peasants played last night in the Bean, it was quality. After hearing them practice a few times, it was good to actually hear vocals with it, and it was awesome, I liked it much. And tonight is our turn, we get to play up the music scene with And Yet (HnR formerly), the Benidict Affair (I like to refer to them as BA, because I'm not quite sure how to spell Benidict, and BA is just easier). So, make sure you get there at or before 8:30, cause BA is opening up, and I'm pretty sure they haven't played at Dordt before, so they'll be new to alot of people, and, oh yeah, they totally rock. I've only seen them once, sadly, but it was totally awesome. After them And Yet (I think it should be And Yet..., with the 3 periods, whatever thats called, elipsis? is that it?, just looks cooler) takes the stage and does their rocking, which is also rockin. I hope they've worked up some new stuff, I'd like to hear it. And then, we do our little thang. Ok, enough hood talk (shudder). We've about doubled our set list from what we had at the end of last school year, so we're gonna be doin like 4 or 5 new songs that no one has heard unless they happened to catch one of our 2 summer shows. And I think 1 or 2 of those new songs are even newer than those shows, and making their concert debut tonight. Hehehehe, I get all giddy just thinking about finally playing a show again, especially with new, totally kick-ass rocking material. Everyone tonight will be sockless, because they are gonna be rocked totally off. I suddenly have a craving for a carmel fudge brownie for some reason.
And since our only way of advertising this thing is by blogs, facebook, and random posters all over campus, I ask please, if you happen to read this today before the show, pass the word around! Tell people about the show. Whats better than a Saturday night show (FREE at that!!) with 3 rocking bands? Lets get a big crowd, cause I know we on stage are gonna be totally pumped and in the rockin mood, I sure hope the crowd is too!!
Ok, enough plug, time to find some food, maybe that brownie, and get started on stuff to pass the time until tonight.
______ of the day: hurrayyyyyyy Rock!!
The up-too-bloody-early Ogukuo
Flowers sleeping in their beds
The city's cemetery's humming
I'm wide awake, it's morning
Thank You to Bright Eyes for that little lyrical selection. And yes, it is true, I am wide awake, and it is morning. Although, I have no idea why I'm awake at 8 am, because I didn't go to bed until 3. I wanted to go to bed at like 1, but duty called, and I kinda had to make sure my house stayed standing thru the hurricane of alcahol that hit it. Last night was like a category 2. Not too bad, but bad enough to warrent a little worry. Plus, my new guitar was pulled out and played last night around 2:30 (quite well, I might add, by capable guitar players, but by ones I didn't really know). I was a bit worried about that, given the strength of the aforementioned hurricane, but went to bed anyway, cause 3 was late enough for me. Got up this morning, and couldn't find my guitar anywhere and started freaking out. Was rude enough to wake up Reid, and found out that he had hidden it behind the couch to protect it. Sorry Ross and Pasma, but Reid just shot up to number 1 roommate, way way up, like, no compitition, and one of you two is gonna have to save some old lady and all her cats from a burning building to pass him up.
Ok, enough on that, Peasants played last night in the Bean, it was quality. After hearing them practice a few times, it was good to actually hear vocals with it, and it was awesome, I liked it much. And tonight is our turn, we get to play up the music scene with And Yet (HnR formerly), the Benidict Affair (I like to refer to them as BA, because I'm not quite sure how to spell Benidict, and BA is just easier). So, make sure you get there at or before 8:30, cause BA is opening up, and I'm pretty sure they haven't played at Dordt before, so they'll be new to alot of people, and, oh yeah, they totally rock. I've only seen them once, sadly, but it was totally awesome. After them And Yet (I think it should be And Yet..., with the 3 periods, whatever thats called, elipsis? is that it?, just looks cooler) takes the stage and does their rocking, which is also rockin. I hope they've worked up some new stuff, I'd like to hear it. And then, we do our little thang. Ok, enough hood talk (shudder). We've about doubled our set list from what we had at the end of last school year, so we're gonna be doin like 4 or 5 new songs that no one has heard unless they happened to catch one of our 2 summer shows. And I think 1 or 2 of those new songs are even newer than those shows, and making their concert debut tonight. Hehehehe, I get all giddy just thinking about finally playing a show again, especially with new, totally kick-ass rocking material. Everyone tonight will be sockless, because they are gonna be rocked totally off. I suddenly have a craving for a carmel fudge brownie for some reason.
And since our only way of advertising this thing is by blogs, facebook, and random posters all over campus, I ask please, if you happen to read this today before the show, pass the word around! Tell people about the show. Whats better than a Saturday night show (FREE at that!!) with 3 rocking bands? Lets get a big crowd, cause I know we on stage are gonna be totally pumped and in the rockin mood, I sure hope the crowd is too!!
Ok, enough plug, time to find some food, maybe that brownie, and get started on stuff to pass the time until tonight.
______ of the day: hurrayyyyyyy Rock!!
The up-too-bloody-early Ogukuo
01 September 2006
It's about time
Its about time for another post. And, yes, it most certainly is all about time, because thats what I've been short on lately. Between work and life crap (as in paper work, paying bills, all the boring stuff) and seeing everyone coming back, I haven't had time to squeeze in a blog sideways. Until now, Its that awkward time between the end of the week and the beginning of the weekend, kinda like the twilight zone, but not at all, really.
So, lesse, um, yeah, people are back, but you know that, cause you are either one of them, or you are one of the ones who was always here who has also witnessed the return of the masses. Of course, I miss people who didn't return, and theres a whole ton of new faces which I don't recognize. I was getting a good impression of this years freshman class until the talent show last night. It was somewhat lackluster. There was an absolutely hilarious video of a girl hiding in a box and scaring the crap out of other girls, which in my opinion takes the cake for best act of the night. There was also an awesome clarinetist who played Amazing Grace quite well, but besides that, the stuff was rather mediocre. Hopefully theres lots of hidden talent in the freshman class, cause there wasn't much on the surface. And things went less than stellar on the techie end last night, but it was the first big production of the year, I have all faith in this years techies that they will pick it up quickly.
Work is about the same, boring as always. At least the past few days brought the slightest bit of variety, thank goodness. And now its a 3-day weekend!! I have no idea how I plan to spend my 72 hours of freedom, but I know I will enjoy them no matter what.
So, heres the real news, I'm gettin all my ducks in a row to throw my hat in the ring for the position of admission councelor at Dordt. I've seen the opening in the paper for most of the summer, and never gave it a thought til someone mentioned to me last Saturday that I should try for it, and I've heard from many others in the past week that they think I would be good at the job. So hopefully sometime early next week I'll have everything together to do that. I know, I'd be working for the institution, or 'the man', but I honestly feel that Dordt as a school is a good place, despite all the underlying problems. I'd be travelling alot, which sounds cool now, but may become a drag because of all the stupid laws that the gov't seems to think will somehow keep us safe. Thank goodness I can rest easy knowing the guy next to me doesn't have fingernail clippers or a water bottle, I feel much safer.
Ok, so enough on that little rant, we, being OJK, had our first full band rehersal in over 2 months earlier this week, and it was truly splendiferous. Totally awesome to have Andrew back so that we are back to our full rocking potential. And good sounds happened, as in totally awesome music. Which we hope to put out for public display sometime next week, not sure on the exact day yet, as far as I know. Whenever it happens, I can't wait, I know I'll be there, hopefully you will be too.
So, anyway, in order to help curb my habit of excessively long posts, I'll just stop here and perhaps write more later when stuff actually happens thats blogworthy.
The 3-day-weekend Ogukuo
So, lesse, um, yeah, people are back, but you know that, cause you are either one of them, or you are one of the ones who was always here who has also witnessed the return of the masses. Of course, I miss people who didn't return, and theres a whole ton of new faces which I don't recognize. I was getting a good impression of this years freshman class until the talent show last night. It was somewhat lackluster. There was an absolutely hilarious video of a girl hiding in a box and scaring the crap out of other girls, which in my opinion takes the cake for best act of the night. There was also an awesome clarinetist who played Amazing Grace quite well, but besides that, the stuff was rather mediocre. Hopefully theres lots of hidden talent in the freshman class, cause there wasn't much on the surface. And things went less than stellar on the techie end last night, but it was the first big production of the year, I have all faith in this years techies that they will pick it up quickly.
Work is about the same, boring as always. At least the past few days brought the slightest bit of variety, thank goodness. And now its a 3-day weekend!! I have no idea how I plan to spend my 72 hours of freedom, but I know I will enjoy them no matter what.
So, heres the real news, I'm gettin all my ducks in a row to throw my hat in the ring for the position of admission councelor at Dordt. I've seen the opening in the paper for most of the summer, and never gave it a thought til someone mentioned to me last Saturday that I should try for it, and I've heard from many others in the past week that they think I would be good at the job. So hopefully sometime early next week I'll have everything together to do that. I know, I'd be working for the institution, or 'the man', but I honestly feel that Dordt as a school is a good place, despite all the underlying problems. I'd be travelling alot, which sounds cool now, but may become a drag because of all the stupid laws that the gov't seems to think will somehow keep us safe. Thank goodness I can rest easy knowing the guy next to me doesn't have fingernail clippers or a water bottle, I feel much safer.
Ok, so enough on that little rant, we, being OJK, had our first full band rehersal in over 2 months earlier this week, and it was truly splendiferous. Totally awesome to have Andrew back so that we are back to our full rocking potential. And good sounds happened, as in totally awesome music. Which we hope to put out for public display sometime next week, not sure on the exact day yet, as far as I know. Whenever it happens, I can't wait, I know I'll be there, hopefully you will be too.
So, anyway, in order to help curb my habit of excessively long posts, I'll just stop here and perhaps write more later when stuff actually happens thats blogworthy.
The 3-day-weekend Ogukuo
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