So, some choices were made for me, and that leaves me with fewer decisions to make on my own. But now I realize that the choices I have left are logistically almost impossible. I can't really say what they are, but basically the choice I'm faced with is making a long term commitment to something, locking myself into a situation that is very difficult to be in. And by difficult, I mean financially so. I'm really stuck, I mean, its a decision that I know I would enjoy, but it would mean scraping by for quite a while. And I simply don't know if I can do that. Don't think me greedy, I'm talking about lifes "simple" expenses such as student loans, rent, utilities, a car payment (not right now, but sooner or later I'm gonna need a real car), insurance, gas, food, and in theory it would be nice to have a little something to put away in savings. Of course, I mean strickly theoretical, cause thats all it is right now.
So this is me stressing a little (read as alot), although you probably really can't tell it just by looking at me, I tend to hide it well. After all, why should I let a stupid thing like money dictate weather I'm fun to be around or not?
So, please pray for me, cause I really honestly have no idea what decision I'm gonna make. And basically its probably going to come down to what decision I can make more than what decision I want to make.
______ of the day: I need to grab life by the curve balls it keeps throwing me
The undecision'd Ogukuo
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Thinking of you, friend.
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